Glitch

Motivational speakers often talk about self-fulfilling prophecies, but it doesn't take any kind of credentials to know that you make anything happen if you put your mind to it. Sometimes though, this can have adverse effects. I must have used the "I'm sick" excuse at least three times last week to get out of work and class. And lo and behold, here I am, coughing up ectoplasmic residue and spitting that shit out against the violent wind of highway 17. There is a positive to being sick, though - it makes scream singing easier, and probably sound better, too.

I feel that my classwork is holding me back from making any headway as far as my real life goes. In ten years, the knowledge of the syntactic structure behind French Passives will be incredibly useless to me, yet this is the kind of shit I end up losing sleep over - this and of course, the necessary daily distractions, whether its playing a video game I've played a thousand times before, or watching Kobe throw elbows and shoot flawlessly (at least on his good days). But I need these things in my life - I can only be so productive, I can only do so much work at once.

But on top of it all, I need to look out for my future, which means that I need to get some shit done, make deadlines for myself for applications that have none. And at the same time, I need to learn how to just turn my brain off, if only for a few seconds, before it overheats.