What the hell just happened? Did I seriously just sleep from 6 to 12? Was my dinner laced with tryptophan? Or was it just due to my massive intake of carbs? Atkins must be rolling in his grave. Wait, he isn't dead. Or is he? I'm too lazy to run a check on wikipedia. In any case, my stomach is suffering and I feel the impending punishment that will unleash by dawn's break.
October reminds me of photos of long roads in the east coast littered with thousands of orange leaves, and small children are playing or walking hand in hand in the foreground, you know the kinds of pictures Windows has in your default picture folder for desktop backgrounds. And it makes me feel nostalgic for something I haven't really experienced. Well, there was that autumn in Japan. So is it then nostalgia for Japan? Or for this picturesque idea for a fall season of which I've been deprived in my tenure among the palm trees and breaking waves of California, and the typhoons and earthquakes of the Philippines?
I feel like dressing up this Halloween. Unfortunately the suggestions I've received have all involved me parading half naked and painting myself green. But it's fun to pretend, regardless, just for one day, that you're something else besides yourself. This year's fall season is a stark contrast to last's, where most nights were spent drinking precariously, and days met with a tinge of hopeful anxiety, for homework assignments, for midterms, for projects, for the future. But the experience is over; the dream is dead. We are all having little luck in the real world. Beyond its door are only harsh realities.
Me? I'm prolonging the magic. My transition will be long, will probably cover a span of at least three years. And it will induce a significant change within me. Still, at my most basic level, I'll probably be the same. But I'll be a little wiser, a little more experienced, a lot better as a person, and before I realize it, I'll have crossed that line into maturity, into adulthood.
Until then, it's love, peace and chicken grease.
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